A couple of months ago I submitted my book to a publisher.
I heard back from them. They liked it. They wanted to publish it.
They would just need $12,000 to design the cover, do some editing, and set up the distribution.
I decided to self publish.
I’m not going to lie: it was a blow to my ego to find out that this publisher that “wanted to talk to me about the project” was really more of an author services company. When someone asks you for $12,000, it’s hard to know what they really think of your work, and that’s the biggest reason for wanting to work with a publisher — to be told by experts that you’re good enough.
But in the process of hitting submit, of putting myself out there for what I thought was going to be industry judgment, this book became real for me. This project became crucial.
I decided to trust myself.
(And all the other experts that are talking about how great self publishing is right now.)
So, I’m finishing up the publishing part of the book right now. I’ve hired a cover designer. The last of the edits are being made. A little formatting needs to be done here and there. I’ve scheduled speaking appearances in Pittsburgh, and I’m planning a book tour around the country for this fall.
It’s almost here.
It even has a name.
I keep telling you this stuff because it makes it more real. It blows up the bridges behind me so I can’t turn around and go back when I get nervous. And yes, I’m nervous.
I was meeting with a couple friends recently and I told them I was scared that people might say bad things about me and/or the book when it comes out.
“Well, don’t you think that’s for sure going to happen? I mean, that’s definitely going to happen,” Caanan said.
People are going to say bad things.
Some people will hate the book. Some people will hate me for writing it. It is inevitable when you put yourself out there that you will encounter critics, and somehow knowing that is actually less scary than thinking there might be critics.
But it’s still good to have the safeguard of telling you all what I’m doing so that I do, in fact, keep doing it.
So I’m publishing a book later this summer.
And I can’t wait.