Obnoxiously THRILLED with myself. Go. Me.

Saturday, March 27th, 2010

I have to tell you this, because if I tell my husband one more time he may stop smiling politely and haul off and punch me in my round little face:

I am so freaking proud of myself!

Driving home with the windows down at 8:30 this morning – on a Saturday morning, mind you – I couldn’t stop smiling.

I did it.

I finished my first week of workouts.

I worked out – and worked out hard – six straight mornings in a row.

Including Saturday morning.

Including Monday morning when the alarm went off at 5:00 am and I thought “hmmm… maybe it would be better to do this later, after dropping Emma off at preschool.”

Including Wednesday morning when I couldn’t feel my damn arms and I reminded myself that “the book said that even the ‘champions’ have skipped a workout occasionally.”

Including Thursday morning when I hit snooze once and found myself staring at the numbers 5:15 blinking on my alarm clock thinking, “well, you’re already late, you probably don’t even have time to get done before Jared has to leave for work… you could just scratch it.  Everybody skips a workout once in a while.”

But every day, for six days in a row until the six days added up to finishing week one, I did it.

This morning, half way through my 20 minute interval aerobic workout on the elliptical machine, I almost quit.  I was so damn tired, and I’d already done so much already.  The big loud voice in my head assured me that giving up now would simply mean that I had a low point to build on.  “You have 12 weeks!  You can quit now and look back in 12 weeks and be excited that you got better with time!  And you went to the gym today – no one will even know that you quit after 10 minutes… or 15 minutes.. or… seriously, at any point now you can quit and still be proud of yourself!”

But the little, much quieter voice wouldn’t give up.

You’ll know,” it said.  “You’ll know that you’re quitting because you’re tired and because you just don’t want to – not because you can’t go on.  You’ll know that you let yourself down, even if no one else knows.”

I finished all 20 minutes and hit the magical “high point” that each workout is designed around.  My arms and legs tingled, sweat was pouring off my forehead beneath my pink Green Bay Packers cap, and my face was as red as it’s ever been.  I was, I’m certain, the most unattractive person in that fancy, state-of-the-art gym – but I was beaming.  There may have even been a hint of a spring in my hobbled gait.

I did it.

And yes, I have 11 more weeks to go.  I’m not even 10% of the way through my 12 week goal, but I’m thrilled with myself just the same.  I’m thrilled because I know how many times during the past 6 days I came >this< close to taking the easy way.  Over and over again I was tempted to just go through the motions, to listen to my very well thought out and reasonable excuses.  But I pushed through and did more than complete a week’s worth of exercises – I did what I knew was my absolute best for six. straight. days.

I’m six days closer to proving to myself that I’m not a quitter, and I couldn’t be prouder.  Yes, damn right, I’m proud of myself.  And we may live in a world where we are told over and over again that it’s not OK to be proud of ourselves, that humility and grace and being a good person means putting your head down and quietly avoiding letting anything “go to our heads” – but not today.  Today I am grinning from ear to ear and pumping my fists in the air and shouting, “I DID IT!”

Tomorrow I will relish my built in “free day”.  I will sleep until my body or my children wake me and I will eat whatever the hell I want.  I will roll around in my hard earned gluttony and enjoy every single minute of it.  And Monday I will start all over again, no doubt armed with a new set of very well thought out and reasonable excuses, including “you did so well the first week, who could blame you for slacking off now?  You’ll always have week one!”  But I’ll deal with that obstacle when I get to it.

Today I will finish out the day with my nutrition plan and allow myself this one. whole. day to be proud.

Because, I did it!

  1. avitable says:

    I knew you could. I’m obnoxiously proud of you too.

  2. Mandi Bone says:

    Great job for finshing the week!

  3. muskrat says:

    You’re like “the little Britt who could”! If God rested after 6 days, you sure as hell can, too.

  4. Whoo-hoo! Yippee! Thrill away!

  5. Sofa king proud of you! When I wanna quit I just do because even though *I* know, I just don’t care. I love that you care.
    Congrats, woman!

  6. Lisa says:

    I’m proud of you too!! I know how hard it was – I went through the same things this week. I still have to get through my Saturday workouts before I can say I did it, but get through them I will. This week has been unbelievably hard, but good too. Being able to be proud of acomplishing something is worth the pain. I’m so happy you feel it too and I’m not just weird! And I’m so proud of you!

    • Miss Britt says:

      @Lisa, I think it’s so cool that we’re both going through this at the same time. Woke up this morning thinking of you – did you do it yesterday?

      • Lisa says:

        @Miss Britt, I did! Only once, though. I was going to do yoga in the afternoon but didn’t, so I might do tha today even though it’s supposed to be my day off.

  7. Finn says:

    I am so proud of you! And you should be proud; this is hard. But I promise it will be worth it. And that it does get easier. Well, not the 5 am part, but the rest of it.

    Enjoy the rest of your weekend!

    • Miss Britt says:

      @Finn, I am not happy with the fact that 5 am doesn’t get easier. Doesn’t your body, like, adjust or something??? Intelligent Design FAIL.

  8. Awesome! I’m proud of you too!

    I know a thing or two about one day at a time and, believe me, it is the only way to go. Keep doing what you’re supposed to do today, just today, and that 12 weeks will be here before you know it. (Easy for me to say, right? I’m in a mini-van with curly fries and a book.)

    xo

    • Miss Britt says:

      @Maggie, dammit, I feel extra special that you commented from a car.

      And, wow, yeah – the “one day at a time” aspect of this has made a HUGE difference.

  9. Grumble Girl says:

    Yay!!! See? You’re a rockstar. Good for you, girl. I knew you could do it… now, keep going!!

  10. Paige says:

    Congrats! That is awesome. Enjoy your free day tomorrow.

  11. RW says:

    Absolutely great! I’m looking forward to my weigh-in Monday morning. SOMEthing’s gotta be happening, I ran/walked 2 miles three times this week.

    • Miss Britt says:

      @RW, I’m actually trying to stay away from the scale because I SWEAR that is the LAST place the results show up.

      Congrats on the 6 miles!

      • RW says:

        @Miss Britt, that’s surreal isn’t it. I have to have that target point – Monday morning weigh in. I keep it in the back of my head, and I POST it too. As long as the numbers tell me results I’m still in the game. The last time I got off the program was when I hit a plateau and shrugged it all off.

  12. Grammy says:

    I’m very proud of you. I know how easy it is to skip a day or two!!!!! I do my exercisesevery morning (unless I skip a day) mostly to keep from getting sooo stiff.

    Love you

  13. Michelle says:

    You deserve to be obnoxiously thrilled! Keep it up!!

  14. Aunt Becky says:

    You can DOOOO it! So proud, yo! I started the Shred yesterday and while I sort of feel like I’m going to die, I’m not giving up. Imma do it to. Because it’s worth it if you work it.

  15. Sunny says:

    Woohoo!!! Congrats on getting through week one!! You can do 11 more and you are going to look and feel fabulous!

  16. Darla says:

    Congratulations Britt!!

  17. Rachael says:

    Woo hoo! You are doing great!

  18. Lynda says:

    Great job! There are days I try to talk myself out of working out too. And the time cheating…you are only lying to yourself.

  19. THAT is freaking awesome! I’ve got to know what plan you’re doing. I’m so inspired by your commitment. I usually cave to the reasonable excuses, but I don’t want to anymore.

    • Miss Britt says:

      @Amie aka MammaLoves, It’s called Body-For-Life and it combines an eating and workout program.

      My mom did it a long time ago so I was already pretty familiar with it.

      You can go to bodyforlife.com – although their web site sucks. I recommend getting the book and the success journal – I think that stupid journal has actually been what’s made a difference for me. I linked to them in my first post, but if you have questions, email me!

  20. Tonz says:

    Congratulations!!!! I am sooo good at the excuses!!! You should be proud!!

  21. Faiqa says:

    I’m proud of you, too!! I am, really. I am, in no way, feeling completely inadequate and like a failure for procrastinating (again) on going back to the gym. Nope, not one bit. Not at ALL. Totally proud. :)

  22. Stella says:

    Ahhh, I workout on the elliptical too with my pink Steelers hat! And, those thoughts cross my mind just as much…good job!

  23. Go you!

    I just started running — well, I ran one day, heh — and my goal is to start doing it every day, or at least as often as I can (hello, rain). The first day I ran, it was so hard, so unbelievably hard, but I did it! I never felt better than I felt after I did it. They weren’t kidding about that “high”!

  24. Nanna says:

    Ah sweetheart YAY YOU!!!!!!!

  25. Catootes says:

    Now I am shamed, because I have failed for the third day in a row to walk across the damn building to hit the gym in my office. Yes, that is pathetic, I know.

    Today I will go.

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