I’ve been a little anxious about this upcoming weekend.
You see, here in central Florida it’s time for Avitaween – Avitable‘s ginormous Halloween party where about 100 people, including about 30 bloggers who I happen to adore, gather in costumes for a night of fun and ridiculous behavior.
See? Ridiculousness
See? A completely rational reason to be anxious, right?
The thing is, things have been more suck than not suck around here lately. (You may have picked up on that.) And while this weekend promises to be a fun time for many, I’ve been looking forward to it with more than a little trepidation.
Because those 30+ people who I happen to adore who are coming into town?
They know about the suck.
They know more, I’m sure, than they’d like to know about the suck. They know that my husband has made me cry. I’m sure they’ve speculated that there’s a pretty good chance that I have also made him cry. They know enough to know that they don’t know everything but that what they don’t know is probably, in all likelihood, filled with even more suck.
And they’re coming here for a party.
I don’t want to be the elephant in the room that makes everyone stop laughing.
I don’t want our friends – both mine and Jared’s – to feel awkward and uncomfortable when they sit at a dinner table with us.
I have had exactly three drinks since this whole mess with my marriage started. I don’t typically drink all that often anyway, but I’ve avoided alcohol like the plague for the past several weeks. I still haven’t decided if I’m going to have a drink at this party, but I’d really, really, really like to let go and just have fun for a little bit.
I want to have fun without feeling guilty about all the suck in my life.
I want just one weekend to let it all go and enjoy the moment.
I picked up Becky from the airport last night, and it’s almost impossible to be around her and not enjoy the moment.
This was at a black tie event. Classy.
And, you know what?
I’ve decided.
I’m going to enjoy the next few days with people I hardly ever see. I’m going to set aside the suck, knowing it will be right where I left it when I’m ready to dive back in, and just not think about that right now.
And while it might still be awkward for people to be around me… screw it.
Bring on the sun.
The Light is bringing on the sun! I’m going to need a pair of sunglasses!
I’ll be there, so you KNOW it shall be teh Awesome.
I won’t bring up “the suck” if you don’t bring up “the fat” on my ass, k?
Sweets, this is one reason we have friends. To forget about the suck for a few hours or days. To work those laugh muscles till they hurt.
To blow the clouds away so the sun can shine.
For the next few days there will be no suck. At least not the kind you’ve been experiencing lately. About the other kind I can promise nothing.
See you soon! Squeeee!
I plan on leaving all of the suckage behind and enjoying the ever loving shit out of this weekend.
Haters be damned.
Oh man, sounds like a great time! You should definitely enjoy yourself. Why the hell not? That’s what parties and friends are for.
I look forward to meeting so many people like you and Becky.
I just hope you don’t make me cry, unless it’s a good cry. Then only once.
Then I start drinking again.
I guarandamntee that a) they’ll be too happy to see you and bask in your presence (heh, see what I did there, The Light? *wink*) to even THINK about it, and b) they’ll take their cues from you. Have a fantastic time!
You will have a wonderful time! With all those great people there, how can you not have a blast? Enjoy it & post lots of pics (even the incriminating ones…LOL)
I have been avoiding a lot of social situations because of my own personal issues, I just can’t picture myself being able to let go and enjoy it. I think this party is different, seems impossible not to get swept up in the whole thing.
Good on you, I say! You set aside that suckage like no one in the history of suckage has ever set aside suckage!
Have a great time. The people that will be there want that for both of you. They’ll read about the rest later.
You go girl! If I were there, I’d totally talk your leg off, but you know that. Plus? I’d have you checking out my ass to give me jeans advice. Speaking of which…I need some ass, errr jeans advice.
I assure you, ifor this entire weekend my focus and concern is on fun, not suck. Your problems can be put up on a shelf until Sunday, just let yourself put them there.
Which is my way of saying: wheeeee, drunk girl karaoke!!!!!!
Check your suckage at the door and have a fantabulous time at the party, Britt!
I’ll confess that this was something that I was a little bit concerned about, and had full intent of taking my cues from you. This post is the best cue I could have received. Let’s have a blast!
YAY! Wash the ‘suck’ right outta yer hair! Have fun!!
Damn! If I was there, we would SO not be about the suckage!!!!!!!
I really want to hear Becky say “WHEEEEEEE” in person!
@Nanna,
when you stay with me for the jimmy buffett concert, there will be many wheeeeeeeeeee’s!
I am sooo jealous, you are going to have a fab time. You are going to let your hair down, put all the suckage on hold and have the best craic ever. Fuck what other people think, let them see that you can still have fun even through the hard times. Plus everyone loves you and will be happy to help you forget the shite. If I was there I would get a bit pissed and sing my heart out with ya!!
In 2011 I will be in Florida at Halloween and if these parties are still going on, I am so going to drag my husband and show yis all how to party the Irish way!! (ie, drinking and singing go hand in hand over here)
You are going to have a fabulous time. And the awesome thing about friends is that when you need to be in the suck, they will sit there with you and when you don’t, they will party along with you.
I cannot wait to see our suck sitting on the sidelines like a lonely little bully while all the cool kids are having fun !!
See you soon !!!!
Put all that “suck” in a box – leave it at home, and don’t open until the weekend is over – you deserve a break!!!
Have an AWESOME TIME!
Just have some fun. Life will be there when you return.
there are a ton of folks here who love you. just be you because guilt is a useless emotion. have fun for a few days and screw guilt. life is just too damn short.
Good. Wish I could be there to revel in the “not suck” and wish you could’ve come up to see Bono with me in the midst of the suck. Next time.
Good for you! Have fun and take tons of pictures for me!!
Damn! I wanna be there too
The party is over…and you totally did NOT bring the suck. You brought down the house. You had fun. Your work here is done.
*mwah*
Don’t worry about what others are thinking. Have fun and let go and enjoy the time with your friends. Friends are good for the soul. And good friends stick with your through all the suckiness of life.
Have fun!
Well, I just realized I’m probably commenting AFTER the party SO, hope you had a great time!