I don’t even want to post today…

Tuesday, January 23rd, 2007

… because everything I think about writing is dripping with emotional goo.

I’m really tired of my emotional goo.

I’m tired of feeling like I’m on the verge of tears.  Or murder.

I hope to God it’s still just a side effect of quitting smoking.  My bigger fear is that I’m turning into one of those people that always has “something” going on.  “Something” that’s wrong.  That person that you have to walk on egg shells around because you never know what will be up – but you always know it will be something.

I don’t want to be that woman.  I absolutely can NOT be that woman.

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  1. jester says:

    From what I can tell, you are not that woman.

    I know that woman. And man did she have a really shitty week.

    She actually took up smoking to cope.

  2. jennyryan says:

    I think the mere fact that you are aware of everything that's going on inside you and wondering how it's affecting you and others means that you are NOT one of those women. Those women don't have a clue.

  3. ohiowagirl says:

    Hey I hear you! Amen to that! I am sure that it’s a quitting side effect. I am glad to hear you are still a quitter though! Way to go!

  4. Wicked H says:

    Na, just being aware that you do not want to be THAT woman will keep you safe.

    Take it one moment at a time, it's all good. Hang in there kiddo!

  5. avitable says:

    If anyone will NOT be that woman, it’s you. Because you kick ass.

    And if you’re having cravings, let me know. I might be help you out with that whole oral fixation.

    Rawr.

  6. debkitty says:

    Have you thought about maybe taking something as a mood elevator? Some doctors prescribe well butrin when you are quitting smoking to help with the emotional mess. If you are interested in a more homeopathic remedy there is a vitamin called Kava Kava, it helps to boost your mood and level out the emotions, I used it when I quit a certain lifestyle (if you read my blog you know the lifestyle) It helps a lot.:wink:

  7. Miss Britt says:

    ohiowagirl: Thanks babe :-)

    avitable: never miss an opportunity, do you? ;-)

    jester: well so far, i'm not smoking again at least! LOL

    debkitty: Kava Kava, that is an excellent idea – thank you Deb!!!!

    AmyD: I really need to get a puffy heart icon on here. And I would put it right XXXhereXXX

    paco: thanks… for listening, and trying to help

    jennyryan: That is a GREAT point!

    Mist 1: you are so reliable

    Jennine: you are soooo not that woman Jennine. Not even close.

    Joe the Troll: yeah, but the security at the White House is pretty tight these days

    Wicked H: no "ignorance is bliss" huh?

  8. AmyD says:

    You’ve had some emotional stuff going on, it’s completely understandable. We all go through rough patches, it is not going to change WHO you are because out of all the people I know, you could never be one of *those* women. :mrgreen:

  9. avitable says:

    Of course not! What type of Blog Husband would I be otherwise?

  10. paco says:

    what’s wrong babe? Give me a call if you want. I may not be able to teach you any more about poker, but I can still listen:)

  11. Mist 1 says:

    Don’t worry. I’ll be that woman for you.

  12. Again, amigo: nicotine is the worst. I have friends who've quick heroin, alcohol, cocaine… and only heroin comes close to nicotine.

    Soldier on, sister. You're actually doing fine, from this distant perspective.

  13. Jennine says:

    Hey…I resemble that remark. I’m already that woman which is why I can say that life sometimes just throws shit your way and it seems to me that your blog is a great way to scrape it off. Don’t underestimate your friends here. We aren’t that superficial.

    Well, maybe Avi is. :wink:

    Sometimes all you can do is breathe. It’s a great place to start.

  14. I’m sure it has to do with quitting, and thus will pass. I didn’t take any mood elevators when I quit (other than chocolate), but I did find that beating the crap out of someone who deserved it was very cathartic!! :-)

  15. jane says:

    You could never be that woman cuz I am. Anyways, if you ever did become her, you'd make being a drama queen the coolest thing evah!

    You quit smoking? YOU SO RAWK!

  16. Miss Britt says:

    avitable: uh huh

    Rich: Maybe that's the key – keeping everyone at a safe distance for a while!

    jane: LOL, I make drama cool, that's funny

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